Abilify coleslaw mess

I, too have extremely difficult to treat depression. I was on Abilify for a couple weeks and did well, but then in my typical manner I didn't put the lid on my pills. I put coleslaw from my lunch in my bag with my pills and melted my pills with coleslaw. All I could think was, "what the hell was I doing with coleslaw?". Luckily I get Abilify for $50 with insurance, but have to wait for June 3 for a refill. I was doing well with Abilify, much better than the othere circus of drugs I've been on. I almost committed suicide after one day on Cymbalta, and have been on some nasty drugs. Too many such as Neurontin just make me numb, and I can't stand that. Now I'm on Seroquel which has been very beneficial in preventing my morning suicidal feelings, and Lamictal which gives me good evenings only. I have rash from Lamictal because my liver is dumping bile into my system and need to go off it ASAP. As soon as I can refill the Abilify I will go back on it and off the Lamictal because Abilify seemed to have great potential without the hideous side effects that these types of drugs can have... God's blessings to everyone suffering through this.